Practicing yoga is traditionally considered energizing and mentally balancing. My roommates, friends and I practice on a roof top patio overlooking Cusco. We have a gorgeous view of the unique houses and cathedrals of Cusco. Since it is the dry season, the sky is usually cloudless and the sun feels amazing. Unfortunately, I´m at such a basic stage, I find myself mostly praying I won´t fall over. Today, I finally admitted to myself that I just don´t enjoy it yet. The operative word here is YET.
I feel the same about learning Spanish. I am in this incredibly vibrant city where 99% of the population speaks purely Spanish, and I find myself struggling to communicate my basic needs. Curious taxi drivers want to make conversation. Polite security guards want to have more conversation than ¨How are you?¨ Landlords need to tell me the expectations and I need to ask important questions to make sure I´m getting a good deal. Sometimes ordering food is a guessing game as to what exactly I will be served. And yet, I still find myself struggling with any motivation to practice. Once again, I am at such a basic level, it is difficult to have conversation with any kind of substance. And I love good conversation. So, when I´m faced with the option of making small talk in a foreign language and having a full, engaging conversation, I tend to lean towards the latter.
Today was a big day, admitting to myself these two very important and healthy activities are just not quite enjoyable yet. I continue to pursue both because I know I will come to love them in time. I feel extremely lucky that I have the time and space to have this internal war.
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